the journey that I took..

lonely,
sorrow,
dark,
gloomy,
scary,
and etc..

hehehe.... sounds like a horror story but that is actually some of the pit stop  that I have to encounter before I continue my journey called life... along this way too I listen, I observe and wonder...

the most important thing is I have to be strong to create a story of me which only me owns it.
a beautiful story or a pathetic story only me can decide....

below is the lyric of a song called hero by mariah Carey... enjoy!!

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you find the way, hey

Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
Mmm, that a hero lies in you


credit to : http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/mariah-carey-lyrics/hero-lyrics.html 

p/s: lots of things is going on in this process of going to be adult... oh god please guide me the way to jannah...

dimana Qistina berada???

Siapakah yang akan menyangka Qistina Sarngi akhirnya telah menjadi penduduk shah alam,

Dulu jealous bebenor dengan Nana and Tira tapi sekarang.... Lihatlah Dunia!!! hahaahahahahaha(gelak org jahat)..erk! hehehe...

Tapi....
kat sini tak nampak langit macam dekat sarawak, udara malam, bintang, roundabout besar punya, jambatan cinta, tasik dalam U, kawan pun lain...(adalar sorang dua yang ikut aku masuk UiTM jugak). Kalaulah environment kat Sarawak boleh bawak kat sini aku confirm, UiTM tetap dan pasti DIHATIKU... Ape2 pun aku tetap bersyukur dengan peluang kedua ini... teringat plak kata2 bik jiha syukur2 jugak Dean List ye fatin... iyolar bibik ooi!!Insyallah boleh!

actually dah sebulan lebih aku kat sini.. dah nak dekat mid-term break pun (oh yeahhh).. baru nak update...sori lar pembaca2 sekalian... saya busy giler..(bajet banyak gila org baca blog ni, tumpang lalu banyak lar) nak kate ade lab report tak jugak, assaingment pun tidak... cuma sibuk dengan aktiviti kolej and fakulti sebanyak 2% yang selebihnye campur tengok korea, sembang dengan kawan baru(sekarang tak baru dah), sedut benda yang best2 dekat laptop orang and main game... facebook aku pun time lab comp je aku bukak... phew.. pack giler jadual aku... tular sebabnye...hehehe

aku kat sini ambik course pure maths.. hehehe.. memang betul2 first love aku sebenarnye tapi aku tak berani nak bagi tau sbb mak aku suruh jadi perempuan berjubah putih dgn stethoscope tu..tu yang time UPU aku mintak gak nak jadi perempuan tu dengan pointer telur dihujung tanduk(versi orang putih humpty dumpty sitting on a wall).. meletup satu rumah bila dapat tau dapat zoologi kat Unimas plak tu... tapi aku suka kat sana... kalaulah....hmmm.... ape2 pun basically aku punya subject segala macam maths, dari acc, calculus, economy and etc....mmg otak aku pun kena tune channel al Khwarizmi...

susah jugak nak pindah U ni.. nak citer betapa susahnye mmg susah nak taip kat sini... dari nak berhenti kat UNImas, angkut luggage naik plane sorg2 dengan urus ptptn... semua aku buat sorang... ada gak sikit2 yang aku malas nak buat and xsempat nak buat macam bayar ptptn dan..... bayar ptptn... tapi berbloi dengan apa yang aku dapat sekarang... berbaloi memang berbaloi..

terima kasih kepada ibubapaku yang memberi support dari segi duit yang banyak, roommate and housemate tercinta kat sarawak, chubby, ika n wa...mak cik liza, kak adilla, abang pilot sebab drive plane dengan coolnyer, bik2 ku sekalian and last cik nadi kite yang sedang berada di puncak... tanpa mereka siapalah aku disini... hehehee....

kat sini banyak perkara baru yang aku belajar sebab aku banyak jumpa orang... dulu kat unimas takpun... kat sini sosial network sikit up dari dulu sebab aku boleh sembang dgn ramai orang kat kelas, jadi otai datang lambat, so semua kenal aku... hahahaha.. kenal muke je, nama xpun...bila test plak aku bersemangat giler study sampai aku boleh xtido satu malam untuk buat test calculus esoknye (sambil tgk drama korea) ... hehehe... dah kata dia first love aku... kira mcm aku sembang kat phone sampai pagi dengan BF lar... nak pegi kelas pun excited walaupun selalu datang seminit awal atau 15 minit lambat especially kelas kul 8.30 sebab roomate aku pun sekaki bangun lambat dengan aku... hehehe.. tapi subuh jaga tau..

kat sini gak aku rasa lebih bernyawa sebab ... jatuh cinta agaknye... seriously aku memang love you lar maths... wlaupun aku masih x nampak career aku in future. aku xnak jadi lecturer mcm yang mak aku suruh, mungkin aku akan tapi tu kalau aku kawin awal after graduate sebab nanti anak aku xde sape jaga(hahahahaha)... kalau x aku nak kerja swasta belajar sikit2 pasal business then aku nak bukak perusahaan... tak tau nak jual apa tapi nama brand dia hj Misran group... kot2 lar kan boleh jadi macam albukhary tu... hehehe... bangga lar anak cucu aku nanti berketurunan haji misran group...nak buat mohd sarngi group ahlinye sikit sangat pulak... 

jadi, sampai disini sahaja post aku kali ni... hmmmm... actually aku nak dedicate this post untuk aku in future... hello future Qistina!!!! aneyong

p/s: philosphy pun aku blaja gak... ntah knape.... aku tengah nak try jatuh cita kat dia...

with love,

qistina mohd sarngi   

tiga budak: walaupun dicincang xkan putus..

power tak tajuk tu.. hahahaha.. dalam keboringan membaca genetik ak spend time sikit kat sini citer pasal tiga budak ni. siapakah identiti mereka bertiga?? 

         
          girlfriend aku dan penyebuk kat rumah. kami dipanggil Fatin Cube oleh makcik2 kami sebab nama awal kami semua fatin... Asyik citer pasal aku n kawan jer diaorg plak aku lupe. tapi atctually kalau nak citer pasal diaorg ni satu page pun tak cukup. memang mak n bapak sama tapi perangai memang lain2. tengok jelar saiz badan.. dah tau..hehehe.. (nasib ak ada tiga jer adik kalau sepuluh mmg buat part 2 pulak tajuk ni)

           First, Athira Mohd sarngi. skarang dok kat kolej PTPL ambik kulineri. kalau korang nak tau dia mmg ada penyakit syndrome anak kedua. mmg samalar pesennye dgn anak2 no dua yang lain. iaitu lain dari yang lain.. hahaha... orang dok huhahuha dia dok diam jer dlm kelas merenung nasib.. orang g jalan2 dia dok umah depan TV. pastu suka cari gaduh ngan org. x ngan ak dgn nana or qasrina. Dengan umi pun selalu jugak. tapi kadang2 punca pergaduhan agak kelakar n tak masuk akal. sejak dilahirkan lagi dia xpenah jauh dari mak aku.. pegi school trip pun xpenah sorg2.. mesti dgn ak sekali. haiz.. kami sekolah sama sejak sekolah rendah tapi xsemua org kenal dia adik aku sebab ak suka hidup sorg2. x kire lar lu family ker ape ker, lu buat hal lu wa buat hal wa. cenggitu ler ak dulu. seriously banyak benda lar aku x puas hati dgn dia. sampai kalau kami gaduh umi boleh nangis tau.. punye hebatnye perang dunia kami. Tapi sejak dia dok kat kolej ni plus sejak kami berjauhan dia dah pandai nak bersosial dah ngan kawan2. pastu kami pun x gaduh dah. cuma dia ngan qasrina x penah nak tamat perangnyer.. tak taular.. dan mungkin bila nanti~(masuk lagu peter pan).. kahkahkah.. ak rasa titik perubahan besar yang dia buat ialah dengan duduk jauh dari umi n call ak bila dia nak exam(yang ni buat ak terkejut giler..yelar dia mane rajin nak call2 orang ni.. dulu time sekolah no telepon kawan pun ad satu jer..) harapan ak kat dia, supaya belajar masak cepat2 nanti ak kawin senang tak yah upah org.. kiterkan family... hahaha

           Secondly Ilyana Mohd Sarngi, dia ni suka kasi gegar.. jugak lain dari yang lain.. dulu kalau sekolah time darjah satu asyik nagis jer.. pastu pagi2 bad mood.. kalau marah sama mcm The Hulk tapi dia kaler purple. semalam ak baru tau yang dia nak balik penang sekali raya Cina nanti. orang dah beli tiket seminggu lepas dah. Memang suka  kelam kabut cari tiket tuk die jer.. haiz.. dah masuk tahun 3 die kat hostel still xdapat nak manage benda2 mcm ni.. kan dah kena usrah khas dari umi sampai meleleh air mata.. hahaha.. budak keding tu mmg dari stat sekolah sampai dah tinggi merenjung suka kasi kepala pusing. Tapi dia lar gak yang nak penuhkan almari piala kat rumah tu dgn pidatolar, berceritalar n pertandingan2 yang sewaktu dengannya. plus dia gaklar kebanggaan kluarga sebab dapat masuk SBP n sekolah agama n hebat dalam pelbagai benda lah kat sekolahtu.. terbaru sekali jadi naqibah. ak x tau sebenarnye apa maksud dia tapi kire mcm ketua usrah lar mcm tu. mungkin jawatan tu x seberapa tapi ak rasa nanti dia cepat je naik jadi ketua pengawas ke pulak..hahaha.. err tapi kalau sekolah campur laki je ke yang jadi ketua pengawas? hermm.. ntahlar mane ak tau.. dari darjah satu sekolah perempuan jer pastu sekolah org putih.. mmg tak boleh bantu.. ada penah satu hari dia tengah buat kerja sekolah bahasa arab.. ada ke tanya ak... haiz.. google pun ak xpenah try.. hehehe.. punya bezanya hidup adik ak yang sorang ni dgn ak.. kalau nak buat perbandingan adik ak keahiratan dan ak keduniaan. hmmm...tapi in progress nak achive dua2 tu.. nantikan.. jengjengjeng~

           Lastly, Qasrina Mohd Sarngi... gene yang paling bagus sekali dalam family sebab org cakap dia paling comel.. kalau ak bawak kluar ada jer org ckap "eh, comelnyerrrr........... adik awak..." pastu bg dia gula2 ke jajan ke.. cikgu kat sekolah umi pun macam tu gak.. kalau duit raya mmg dia paling banyak.. tapi ngan mak cik ak mesti duit raya ak yang banyak sebab ikut ranking education.. hahaha..herm, dia ni sukaa cari gaduh dgn tira. tak tau pasal ape.. tapi dgn ak senang nak dibuli.. kalau ak balik memang dia teman sejati untuk kluar pegi beli makanan. macam perempuan2 yang lain (cuma kes die ni budak kecik g) suka nak ber-make up ni. kami yang kakak2 ni mmg taklar kan.. sebab kami natural beauty.. kalau dia dok sorg2 ad jer lipstick mak ak or eye shadow yang melekat kat muke die.. pastu suka ngat bergaya.. memang perempuan sejati.. sebenarnye, kesian jadi anak last ni sebab dok sorg2 tunggu kiteorg balik.. hahaha.. tapi xdenye umi nak bagi dia dok main game n tgk kartun(since takde sape nak berebut tv dgn dia) sepanjang masa coz mcm kiteorg dulu gak waktu dia penuh dgn tusyen n buat kerja sekolah. favourite dia suka makan yogurt mcm calci-yum tu.. nak tinggi katenyer.. ak tengok dah darjah 5 still tak boleh pasang lampu sendiri.. hahaha.. makan ler banyak2 lagi.

           conclusion, jumpa nanti raya cina!!.. hahaha.. ak harap kite boleh g holiday kali ni coz sejak pindah xpenah g holiday yang betul2 holiday.. erk, paham x? xpelar.. hope ayat2 kat atas tu x menyakitkan hati sapa2.. if ada meh ak belanja makan..

with love,

qistina Mohd sarngi

p/s: ada satu lagi paper.. dan paper itu adalah paper yang memerlukan laci yang banyak di dalam otak untuk disimpan semua benda2 yang ak perlu hafal which is ak mmg fail dalam perkara ni. hanya mampu berserah pada takdir(ayat org pasrah). 4 hari lagi pastu hello abang pilot!!

Ramadhan + Merdeka + Banting Raya + Sabak Raya + Sarawak + Unimas = A long Journey part 2

so as promise.. walaupun lambat but still ada.. hehehe.. Part 2.. rewind balik ape yang berlaku dan sambil2 tu dgr lagu super junior.. hahaha..knapa ak minat sangat kat semua mamat2 ni.. ermm.. nanti ak citer lain..
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Sabak Raya
Time aku balik mase tu ad keluarga paman jemi, wak ayob dgn wak mes x lupe jugak bibik noraku (spelling jawa lemah sikit..). jadi sampai je kg kiteorg g beraya dgn diorg except wak ayob sebab dia dah pegi dulu.. kata org jawa *baraan lar..(*ramai2 beraya rumah org) same mcm banting tahun ni kite ambik pangkal je.. sebab ak nak terbang ke sarwk. malam tu pulak wak ayob belanja makan.. YAY!! hahahaha.. so we orderd tomyam n nasi putih n side dishes. sebabkan org belanja mestilar sedap.. hehehe.. next, ak yang ak nak bg tau tentang ke-passion-nan (jgn tiru perkataan ini) paman jemi dgn kamera..cantik gambar yang dia ambik n technique yg dia ajalar tu adalar ak guna kdg2.. hehehehehe.. thanks paman.. lepas tu the next day, beraya jugak kejap.. pegi rumah yang jauh nun disana tue... pastu pegi sungai besar beli barang kawin dgn family wak ayob... walaupun dah terlambat disini ak nak wish jugak SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU YUN.. dia ni sepupu ak.. dah kawin dah dia.. semoga berkekalan hingga ke anak cucu.. amin.. mak ak in charge bilik tido pengantin jadi dia kalutlar beli brg2 dia..sayang ak x ambik gambar bilik tu bila siap.. tapi serious cakap.. CANTIK!!! TerBAIK!!!.. time balik, kiteorg singgah kubur embah lanang kejap.. ak yang bendera jepun ni dapat tgk dr jauh je..mengalir jugak lar air mata ak ni sbb xdapat tgk dkt kubur embah.. ak harap dia tau ak ada kat situ jugak..once ak penah ckp kekecewaan ak kat wall bik nora bile dia upload gambr embah lanang dan menyatakan kerinduan dia and ayat wak ayob xkan ak lupa sampai bile2.. sedekahkan pahala yang kita buat kepada dia and berdoa agar rohnya tenteram disana..(lebih kurang mcm ni.. intinya ada tapi not exactly since ak dah tlupa, again). sejak daripada itu ap yang ak buat semua ak pikir dulu.. if ak nak buat jahat ak pikir org2 yang ak sayang.. mesti dia sedihkan if diorg tau ak ni jahat.. penat jer jaga ak dari kecik sampai besar gabak mcm ni tapi dosa ak kat Allah lebih berat daripd pahala.. haiz..with that, cerita ak masa sabak raya berakhir...

p/s: Al-Fatihah kepada embah lanang, boyot dan yang lain yang telah pergi sampai waktu ak post ni...

Sarawak + UNIMAS
Untuk tajuk yang ni ak nak cerite pasal masa ak fly dari LCCT ke Kuching and ppl who help me kat sarawak sampai lar ak daftar bilik... so pagi tu pukul 4 pagi semua pakat bagun nak anta ak.. jadi Pengiringnyer: paman radhi n isteri, paman mokhtar, wak pijah, atuk n nenek dan family ak.
Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kepada semua diatas kerana sanggup bagun pagi2 bute, mandi dgn air yang sejuk tahap gunung everest n bawak keta ke LCCT walaupun ngantuk..plus atuk n nenek yang nak jugak ikut walaupun kiteorg takut xsihat..
masa ak kat LCCT ak sgt2 seronok.. satu sbb nak naik plane for the first time, dua sebab ramai sgt org yang hantar ak.. ( terharu giler) tiga..ermm..xtau mcm mane nak citer..
ak, abah, umi n Qasrina sampai sarawak 3 hari awal dari pendaftaran sebab nak tiket murah.. jadi kiteorg round satu kuching tu sampai lah ke santubong ...thanks to kawan abah yang pinjamkan kereta, yang ambik kiteorg kat airport, yang belanja kiteorg makan penuh lauk satu meja lepas tu kawan lama umi n abah masa kat U yang jemput kiteorg dtg rumah.. lastly kak dillah n dr samsur yg tlog kiteorg time daftar.. thanks tlg carikan bilik n angkat kan beg yang berat dari berat badan tira.. hehehe over.. THANks alot..

Jadi... itulah cerita dua bulan yang penuh dgn benda baru...sgt2 baru bg ak yang buat ak blurr sebentar.. lega dapat tulis semua.. harap takde yang tertinggal.. kepulunan ak menulis dua parts of this post dah selesai...

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mid sem break fever..

yes, i am coming back to penang..
yes, i am celebrating Hari Raya Qurban in semenanjung..
hmm,,, Happy!!!
not saying sarawak is not fun.. but... errr.. a bit not..
i miss the mall in semanjung, the sales, the cheaper price
i miss nasi kandar, tempoyak and all the spicy food, the cheaper price
i miss my car where I can go anywhere and my scooter
i miss watching suju on utube without worrying the kb i used to stream..
i miss my ...... and counting..

penang! I'll be back!

So Here I AM

Hello Sarawak, Hello Unimas, Hello BRC and Hello zoology..
it has been a few moths I updated my feelings after the post about I'm going to UNImas..
firstly I wanted to tell about what is zoology.. in simple sentence from my understanding, zoology is a course that teach us to study about everything under the sun mainly animals and those who want to an animal scientist. the aim to learn this is to conserve those natural resources for our future generation.  it is fun though since I am 30% nature lover even before I know this course.. the other 70% still in progress (still striving..) other than that, the subjects that we took does not only based on animals but as I said earlier they are everything under the sun. for the first semester we learn analytical chemistry, statistic for biology, general genetic and the non-sleeping time biodiversity. basically the other lecture are just the same like the lecture given in matrics but in BioD class I feel different. different in this situation is where I need to be a grown up to enter this class. act like a university student and avoid being a passenger in a bus. although it is hard to survive in this class (if you are lack of knowledge and your hobby is not reading), I sincerely eager to attend this class everyday. cause the knowledge that i will gain is priceless and every sec of his words is like a rare diamond which you will only found in UNimas. might be the next post will be about him since I'm still doing some study about him. 
well, my interest to biodiversity starts to grow because of him but I feel down every time I fail his quiz. hmm.. I'm so dumb to think too deep about the answer which is already in front of me. I'll try harder..haiz.. not only that, I still don't have the guts to break the shell of being a passenger and become a leader instead..I'll try harder.. haiz.. plus, I have to be in higher order thinking which is something my mind and heart still cant accept... I'll try harder.. haiz.. I kept asking myself why but the answers came out as excuses to still stay in the shell. so my aim is to stay in his class and break the shell.. yEAH!!!! wiiiieeeee..
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dalam kegembiraan, kekalutan, kepanasan dan kehujanan,, ak duduk seorg diri di satu sudut memandang dan melihat telatah orang2 disini.. sungguh lucu, sungguh aneh.. buat ak tertarik untuk terus tinggal disini.. sejujurnya ak cemburu dengan kemesraan mereka yang baru jer kenal dlam sebulan lebih ni.. tapi disebabkan tahap malu yang 100% melebihi tahap darah tinggi menyebabkan ak melupakan hasrat ku untuk turut serta.. biarlah ak seronok melihat tanpa menggangu kerana kata2ku mungkin akan memecahkan kgembiraan.. kekekokkanku akan mematikan kemeriahan suasana itu. ak gembira begini. source-unknown
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next is about unimas,
no stars because of frequently rain, no gardenia maybe because the factory is too far from here, no shades makes the students can form an umbrella club and unstable weather. hmm.. maybe sometimes I feel lonely, but i know time will mend it and I have to stay strong. maybe I spend too much to cure my loneliness but I hope my parents will understand.. hahaaha.. overall H.A.P.P.Y... with the course, people and surroundings.. U sapa yang ada tasik besar gla, yang ada bas banyak gla, yang ada prof best gla, yang ada guys mcm korea byak gla, yang ada apartment besar gila, yang ada roomate best gla and hingak gak(tolong jgn kembang)....okayyy semua U ada.. tapi ak punya lebih special..:) saranghae...<3

about me and sarawak <------->

Jauh tu...
boleh ke blaja kat sana??
knapa jauh sangat??
course apa tue??
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typical comment from unknown sources. My response?? poker face and act blur.. the best get away when you feel annoyed and want to hide it.
I already did the dokumen perjalanan terhad, paid the fee and booked the flight.. but my heart and my head still asking the same question day by day since i received fate.. AM I DOING THE RIGHT CHOICE??
or ARE THERE EVEN ANY OTHER CHOICES??
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I knew the result at work and once I found out DANG!! it hit my face badly.. i hold my tears cause i do not want this matter effect my work. suddenly my mother came to send me launch. at that time i rushed into the car and started crying badly at home..my mum try to comfort me but  it was all in vain since it made me cry harder... just imagine my castle is crushed down by a bulldozer called upu... i skip my launch that day and went back to work after crying.. thank god they don't know i was crying at home.. but my close friend do notice my over-watery-eyes and give me support after knowing..
the next day the news spread to shah alam and klang ( my aunts place)... everyone said  'its okay' but I said its un-ok.. in the same time the decision had to be make in a week..

IN THAT PARTICULAR WEEK
- search any IPTS that I am able to enter
- call the IPTS for details
- DECISION 
- my uncle put me to accept he offer and decide after enter the IPTA

well, the biggest problem here is not the IPTA but the course they give me is really not satisfying my target to further my study. haiz.. I know my grades are not 4.0 but i got more than 3.5 which is a bit high for MY level of of study.. hmm.. i'm expecting more since my friend who does not event get 3.0 can get this course.. Reality does hit me badly this time.. thank god i have my mum who give me support everyday. if not, i might jump from the tallest building in kepala batas which is err.. hotel seri malaysia I guess..hahaha..( it is an analogy not reality) 

so now i am preparing for the admission day which is a few days after raya.. the word preparing is actually for my mother since she is the one who did it all for me.. hmm.. I wonder what will be without her..

lastly, thanks for those who support me and for those who think negatively, I'll try harder to change it.. just give me some time to digest what have been fed to me.. since time will cure everything I hope.

Que Sera Sera

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

p/s:I hope you enjoy this lovely song that I accidentally feel want to put it here.. hahaha.. 

Dah lama dlam ingatan cuma nak luah je: Nanny and wedding

Salam!! Dah lama tak post something kat sini sejak habis matrik. so, hari ni nak cerita banyak2 pasal apa yg berlaku kat diriku which only some who follow my blog will know.. ( thanks for the two guys.. hehehe)
Disebabkan my vocab gets worst day by day cause by my laziness I have to write in both language for better understanding of my feeling when i'm revising this post..( kalau cikgu BM dengan BI tahu mampos)
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[recall balik ap yg berlaku for the past few months]
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APRIL

exactly lepas habis exam last kat matrik aku dapat call dari umi kata bibik ziha kat ward dah nak bersalin.. punyalar ak excited sampai bley lari bilik nadiah nak bgtau dia.. mcam xbley mesej.. hehehe..  pastu time itu juga lah aku dpat tahu kena jaga bibik ziha dalam pantang.. bertolak hari sabtu minggu tue jugak.. hmm...mood time tue... errr..agak sedih sebab ingat nak hangout pastu online.. tapi gembira jugak sebab dapat jumpa baby bibik ziha.. Pada hari yg ditetapkan bertemulah ak dgan baby itu yg bernama nur anis nashrah yg bermaksud....... errr.. nanti tanya atuk balik..
 ak masak, jemur kain, basuh kain and urus nashrah punya entire.. kira mcam manager dia gitu.. hehehe
even tak ada internet time tue ak still rasa happy sebb dapat main dengan nashrah.. tapi mungkin paman mokhtar perasan betapa pentingnya internet kpd remaja so dia belikan ak broadband.. ak tau dia nak ak rasa selesa menjaga anak dia plus perasan ak boring giler kdg2.. tapi ap2 pun THANKS ALOT..

p/s: makanan org pantang yg ak masak memang x sedap giler.. ak solute bibik ziha sebab dapat makan utk kepentingan kesihatan baby n diri dia sendiri..

MEI

start dah nenek kalut pasal bibik wawa nak kawin yang bermula 3 jun  akad nikah n bersanding 5 jun.. second sebab mengapa ak mesti ada kat kg. minggu pertama pergaduhan antara nenek dan atuk semakin hangat sebab nak ingat nama2 org yang akan dijemput berserta alamat. plus keliling rumah pun stat dibersihkan (menambah kemarahan nenek pada atuk sebab dia x reti buat kerja) haih kesian atukku.. old couple pun gaduh apatah lagi parents ak. oh ya, bibik apit and bibik wawa pun start balik kg every week utk membantu mana yg mampu plus bawak barang balik. dalam satu malam ja dapur nenek boleh penuh mcam pasaraya longwan dgan barang kahwin.(berapa lar agaknya belanja tu).minggu seterusnya pun sama jugak and rumah nenek dah start cat kalau x silap. satu hal pulak pasal cat yang memberikan keharuman yang sgat wangi sampai boleh membahayakan kesihatan baby NAsh. Jadi, ak, bibik ziha and nashrah sekejap duduk belakang sekejap duduk dapur utk lari daripada bau itu. THANKs atuk Han dan anak dia mahathir plus kawan dia (part time je) yg tolong cat. THUMBS UP utk mereka. minggu ketiga sibuk jugak.. tapi buat apa ak lupa plak.. kita skip pergi minggu keempat.. since dah last week utk preaparation tersebut jadi semakin bertambah kalutlar semua org..( org kedah kata gelabah jingga) terutamanya BIBIK WAWA(pengantin + chief wedding planner), BIBIK APIT ( assistant wedding planner), AKU (pangkat mcm office boy), BIBIK ZIHA ( pemberi idea2 bernas), Nahrah ( jadi gud girl sepanjang proses itu). kahkah.. sesuka hati ak ja bg pangkat kat org.. harap tiada terasa hati.. oh ya.. nenek ngan atuk pengerusi terhormat...

PECAL IN THE MAKING

pecal ni makanan tradisi Misran and The Gang juga salah satu menu utama time wedding nanti.. ak lah salah satu jawatankuasa dalam pembikinan pecal yang memang sedap itu ( kalau nak tahu mama paman radhi mintak sikit nak bawak balik..Terbaik!!)I tell you best in Banting and some say penang tau.. ( rumah ak ja la tue)... back to the main, ada 3 org kawan nenek (wak kesat , wak... dan wak....) dan nenek mahani yang bantu buat pecal tu dgan nana n  amar( sekadar tgk).  stat pukul 1 pagi sampai tengah hari nak dkt petang.. tapi yg pagi buta tu nenek sorg jalar yg bangun goreng kacang..disebabkan rasanya yg TERBAIK jadi pembuatannya pun unik gak.. ak ada ambik gambar tapi kat hp bibik ziha. sapa nak tau nanti ak email resepi dan picture dia skali. ( ada potenssi jadi reporter tak?? hehehe..)

p/s: harap picture yg dlam hp bik ziha takdi delete.

seterusnya, listing persediaan wedding tersebut terus dipotong satu2 dan menambahkan kelegaan nenekku dan atuk ku.. minggu terakhir bulan ni ak ada pembantu bawahan ak. NANA dan AMAR bolehlar angkat2 barang ngan almari.. bangga jadi bos depa.. hehehe

JUN

the WEDDING!!!!!
akad nikah DONE
sinoman DONE
khatam alquran DONE
cukur jambul DONE
bersanding DONE

tgok sajalar kegembiraan dan keletihan kat picture2 yg diambil oleh cameramanngurl terhebat dari Misran Group. lepas habis ja majlis semua pun balik.... Cik Ilah balik putrajaya ak pun balik pennag.. so strory after majlis ak tak tahu pun.. Apa yang pasti segala kelemahan dapat diatasi dan WEdding of the year in Hj Misran Grouppun dapat berlangsung dgn gahnya .. Tahniah bibik Wawa and Paman Radhi!!!

My comment
TERBAIK!!! hahaha.. semua under Hj Misran Group dah buat yang terbaik dlam Wedding in the making and backstage. ak sebagai pemerhati mmg tabik semua yg terlibat termasuk family atuk dan nenek. Break kali ni memang paling best (dapat jaga baby andmenyibuk dalam wedding org)  dan menyedarkan ak sebenarnya fatin ni dah besar dah pun.. hehehehe

p/s : maaf kalau terkasar bahasa atau dapat menimbulkan komen2 negative kpd pembaca2...

with love, 

qistina sarngi

 

In memory

First,
My Precious Only Love...

My mobile phone.. Nokia X3

not a high tech phone but the stuff in it PRICELESS..
- songs
- videos
- phone numbers ( my old friends)
- pictures


Lost on 15 Feb 2011 one day after my birthday and that phone was my birthday present..
HAiz.. my own mistake... 
Left it in a taxi.. and I strongly believe that the taxi driver stole it!!!

100% sure...

Hate that guy.. act innocent but deep in your heart??? $@#$@#$@^%
Luckily there is a system where you can renew you sim card.. 
so, i'm still using the same number..^^

Second,

Embah Lanang  (my grandfather)


he passed away on 2 march 2011 at 12.30 pm after suffered from an accident last year..
after the accident he was half paralyzed after undergo an operation to remove blood cloth in his brain..
since then he cant speak which is pretty sad cause i love to listen to him talked about his past.. he also could not moved... he showed some improvement throughout the days but it seems he lost in the middle of his fight.....
Al-fatihah and Yassin is the best I can do..

my love to Teluk Intan

taken from Google

 

Fifteen years is enough to make a collection of memories in here. Here is the place I was born and grow until i reached 15... I miss them all.. KFC, Fajar(now is The Store) and mostly friends. My friends who have been with me since in primary school, my friends that I met in my secondary, my neighbors, my crush and etc. Miss their craziness, fun, sad and fights together. I which I can go back there for real and spend time with them until they get bored (now with cinema in TI and MacD and other intresting place to hang out, I think they wont) hmm.. 4 years I search for the right time where I can just go to TI and meet them, talk about things that I miss for the 4 years back. But, time is just keep passing by so quickly and does not stop or paused. There are times when my family stop for awhile for launch before we reached to my grandparents house in Sabak Bernam. That time is just enough for me to take a glimpse of my old school but not to meet my friends since we are in rush. I was really sad till now and hope that 'next time' will come. That time come last year's Raya in MacD but just for awhile. I am really sorry to them cause cant stay longer for those who came late. haiz...
I will 'next time'..

the man who care..

He is the only man I know for all my life. I love him and I know he loves me too. He is handsome looking man and that why he is my man. He always busy with his work and put work as his most important thing in life. He seldom show his love towards me that is because he does not know the way to show it and he will feel awkward if he does. He used to have time but that time has been use for his friends and his work. People always talk behind him for his perfectionist in everything he does. He is very particular with even the slightest mistakes. Sadly, he never see his imperfection. His words sometimes is sharper than a blade. That words make a scar to my heart. With all that, I still love him.. respect him... as he is the man who care..

p/s: sorry for any mistakes in the sentences.