lonely,
sorrow,
dark,
gloomy,
scary,
and etc..
hehehe.... sounds like a horror story but that is actually some of the pit stop that I have to encounter before I continue my journey called life... along this way too I listen, I observe and wonder...
the most important thing is I have to be strong to create a story of me which only me owns it.
a beautiful story or a pathetic story only me can decide....
below is the lyric of a song called hero by mariah Carey... enjoy!!
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you find the way, hey
Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
Mmm, that a hero lies in you
credit to : http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/mariah-carey-lyrics/hero-lyrics.html
p/s: lots of things is going on in this process of going to be adult... oh god please guide me the way to jannah...
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28 September, 2012
01 September, 2012
the clouds..
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This picture is so beautiful and mesmerizing... found it in the facebook.. wanted to ask where is this place but then I think let me find this place by my own.. would be more challenging and fun!!.. really hope I can go there and watch it on my own... the beauty of god's creation... symbolize freedom, wide and refreshing... weird but that is what I truly feel.. hahaha..
actually I have been collecting pictures of the clouds or skies recently.. even with only mobile phone camera I am able to capture two which I personally like and really love... although the quality of the picture is not very good, its okay... I am satisfied with what I have... ^^
with love,
qistinamohdsarngi
p/s: this is their link (click it)... used to be my aunt's wedding photographer I guess... that is why I like their page..
11 August, 2012
perempuan itu adakah dia hypocrite??
owh tidak... modul yang sangat membosankan... since perempuan itu akan berkenalan dengan orang baru... dan akan ada lelaki dan perempuan dan a tutor... bosan sebab paling tak suka mencari kawan baru sebab perempuan itu perlu dengan awkward-nya menanya the taboo questions.. errr.. nama sapa? course apa?? if not you will be left out and be in your own lonely world...yeah, it is sad.. bukannya perempuan itu tak suka tapi cuma that ice breaking phase is 100 million uncomfortable..berapakah tebal muka perempuan itu semasa that ice breaking phase??? mungkinkah setebal 10 lapis BB cream? Only god knows... plus when that so-called-new-friend dah memang ada clique sendiri... memang keseoranganlah perempuan itu... haiz.... I sincerely pity her..
tapi perempuan itu pandai mengawal perasaan dan jiwanya... dalam hati rasa macam nak keluar je dari bilik tu... tapi di sebabkan kebolehan perempuan itu dan kehebatannya mengawal perasaan dan jiwa.. dia pun menunjukkan the most faking smile ever in her life.. hahaha...
so next activity is to describe our partners base on our first impression on her... jadi perempuan itu pun tulislar tiga benda tentang partner dia... guess what! partner dia tulis yang perempuan itu ceria, sopan santun dan selalu senyum... haiz... memang betul pun... hahaha.. tapi tu luaran jer.. since the qustion is focus on first impression...that sounds cool... tapi yang perempuan tu tulis memang exactly same dengan perwatakan partner dia.. how she knows???? makan garam lebih lar kawan...
let me tell you about perempuan itu yang memang aku kenal sangat dari kecik lagi... dia sangat ceria... memang... tapi keceriaannya sebenarnya nak menutup kesedihannya... dia sangat sopan santun sebab itu apa yang the society want.. but actually she wanted to be out from that title and be wild.. not too wild but wild... aku dengan dia saja yang tahu macam mana tahap ke-wild-an yang dimaksudkan.. dan lastly, selalu senyum... senyum tu sedekah... jadi why not?? hehehe...
let me tell you about perempuan itu yang memang aku kenal sangat dari kecik lagi... dia sangat ceria... memang... tapi keceriaannya sebenarnya nak menutup kesedihannya... dia sangat sopan santun sebab itu apa yang the society want.. but actually she wanted to be out from that title and be wild.. not too wild but wild... aku dengan dia saja yang tahu macam mana tahap ke-wild-an yang dimaksudkan.. dan lastly, selalu senyum... senyum tu sedekah... jadi why not?? hehehe...
jadi adakah perempuan itu hypocrite??? I don't think so... I think she just apply the basic things to survive in this unfair world..
p/s: sepatutya dah tido sebab esok 9.30 am kena naik bas balik penang.. tapi merepek mencipta character yang diidamkan... hahaha.. macam penulis novel pulak... hmmmm... mungkin nanti aku akan tulis a complete set... hmmm... mungkin akan ada orang bash aku teruk gila sebab mix melayu dengan english... mungkin nantilar...
with love,
qistina mohd sarngi
20 July, 2012
B.A.R.U dan lama...
Salam...
Dah lama tak post kat sini... dalam otak dah banyak benda nak tulis sebenarnya tapi nak men-translate-kan kepada bahasa manusia tu agak susah sikit... perlukan masa dan kebijaksanaan 'menggoreng'...
So post ni jugak merupakan post yang pertama guna background baru... try tengok sekeliling .... plus header tu di buat khas dari photoshop... mungkin agak pelik dan tak sekreatif yang sebelum ni.. tapi yang ni lebih Qistina's style.. seni yang pelik memang saya.. hehehehe...thanks kat Wa (housemate kat UNIMAS dulu) yang telah menghabiskan masa lapangnya membuat blog aku ... below ada print screen blog dulu supaya aku x lupa hasil tangan Wa...
Next nak cerita yang super junior buat album baru... hahaha... ya saya memang ELF tapi sekadar mengisi masa lapang ... x lar sepenuh masa.. sebab masa yang lain saya Hottest, Blackjack, V.I.P dan sebagainya...hahaha.. dan hamba Allah sepenuh masa... ok back to the story, oppa2 suju ni keluarkan album keenam yang bertajuk Sexy, Free and Single... ulalala... macam describe aku jer.. tapi tang sexy tu bukan aku lar.. ada 10 track dan aku suka semua..jadi aku recommend semua kat korang... selalunya ada satu atau dua lagu dari album diaorg yang aku rasa macam nak baling earphone je bila dengar tapi yang ni aku ulang nak dekat 10 kali... mungkin sebab banyak lagu yang lembut dan menenangkan hati...(aku sebanrnya jiwang 1% ni semua sebab aku lahir bulan feb.. hehehe..)
Ramai yang pelik terutamanya kaum lelaki yang tak paham kenapakah dan mengapakah aku dan orang2 yang sewaktu dengannya boleh minat dengan lagu2 korea ni pada hal lirik pun xpaham... hmm... sebenarnya aku lagi tak paham diorang... first kalau xpaham bahasa diaorg google kan ada... banyak yang dah di eng sub ..aku mengamalkan sikap paham lagu baru nyanyi..sebab takut ada bahasa seperti $!$!%@^ plak yang aku dok syok nyanyi... kedua memang banyak yang macam obses gila2 kat penyanyi2 n pelakon2 kat negara tu... FYI ada je kawan aku yang gila2 obses kat penyanyi dgn pelakon negara lain.. siap cakap pun nak macam diaorg... eg, hindustan.. dulu zaman rosalinda(cerita mxico yang ada hero handsome gila) kat sekolah aku asyik2 mia mor, porke... plus yang obses komik, bola, kereta, serangga(??)aku xcakap ape2 pun...pssstt.. maklumat dalam turut mengatakan walaupun jantina opposite aku x suka dengan artis2 negara tu tapi stail rambut dengan fesyen baju still ikut negara tu jugak.. ape kes???jadi... respect my interest so I can respect yours too... okay? set!!
hmm... lepas tu apa lagi yang baru??? nak cerita kawan baru macam banyak sangat.. satu kelas ada 16 ke 17 orang aku masih tak sure.. sorang laki.. yang 16/17 ni batch intake untuk yang under UiTM je.. memang semua otak maths jadi memang ngam lar.. kalau yang tak ngam tu pun aku buat2 ngam juga... hahaha... jadi aku agak aman bahagia sekarang.. first sebab ada subject maths... calculus satu sampai tiga, maths logic, linear algebra, economy dan sebagainya... ambik kau... nak sangat maths...dulu kat UNIMAS xde maths pun... I mean maths yang macam add maths tu... sedih gila aku.. petang2 balik kelas megenang nasib kat jambatan cinta...kedua sebab tak payah masuk lab... yay! satu2nya lab yang aku kena masuk lab computer... ape lar sangat..... dan yang terakhir sebab aku banyak sangat kawan yang satu course kat sini.. aku rasa macam zaman kat convent dengan matrik kembali... oh, indahnya dunia... (over mode dah mai dah)
tapi, dalam kegembiraan aku tu aku rasa sedih sangat dengan rindu sangat nak jalan dekat jambatan cinta malam2 (please not when it rained heavily.. dont dare to imagine..).. bawak kereta manual (yang aku tak pandai langsung sampai kena minta siti iha yang kawal gear aku kawal stereng) dengan yah, siti iha n siti has... sembang pasal hongki dengan fatin romdzi walaupun aku sebenarnya ELF.. jadi basically aku dengar je dia cakap... tapi aku suka sebab boleh tambah ilmu pengetahuan... hahaha...plus sedut cerita dengan dia gak plus jadi gila time lab chem... plus dia perkenalkan aku kat simon and martina (the couple who review kpop vid). They should thank fatin romdzi sebab dah tambah sorang yang subcribe channel dia.. hahaha... pastu pegi bilik ntah sapa sebab nak mintak runningman... serious lawak gila... pastu karok dengan ika yang sama gila dengan aku tapi gila2 dia dean list jugak... owh aku lupa nak cakap yang kwan aku sekarang pun fatin jugak... hahaha... aku rasa kalau aku duduk dalam komuniti fatin aku memang selamat, aman dan bahagia... err laki ada nama fatin x? aku nak kawin dengan dia... hahaha.... lepas tu aku rindu kt kak aishah... dia cahaya aku kat UNIMAS (hyperbola) sebab masa daftar kat BRC which aku memang murung gila masa tu sebab baru sampai UNIMAS plus tak kenal sapa2 tetiba nampak dia kakak yang satu class dengan aku masa matrik dulu... ohh indahnya dunia... pastu dia selalu belanja aku Milo.. yerobun bogosipeul (ejaan salah tapi bunyi macam betul)!!! uwaaaa.... T T
aku sangat sakit hati dan x puas hati dan makan hati bila ada orang cakap aku pindah sebab rindu rumah dan orang kutuk2 course lama aku kat UNIMAS... HELLO manusia... tau tak budak2 yang ambik course tu semua bijak2, lawa2, handsome2 dan baik2 dari korang...plus aku dari dulu selalu tak pernah duduk rumah dan bukan anak manja... dari 4 tahun aku selalu balik kg dengan m.cik aku bila hujung tahun, sekolah aku walaupun 10min dari tempat kerja abah tapi dia tak pernah ambik aku balik bila hujung minggu dan matrik aku kat changlun, kedah....sekian... aku tukar sebab aku tak bijak bio dan sangatlah tidak pandai chem(terbukti bila aku dpt C+ time finale) dan nak maths tu jer.. bukan sebab aku rasa course tu takde class... please have some respect... dont worry guys walaupun aku dah tukar course aku akan protect course korang tu... hahaha... rasa macam Superwomen pulak.. aku xpernah ada peluang nak jelaskan kat manusia2 terbabit.. jadi kat sini pun cukuplar kan..
conclusion.... walaupun aku sgt bahagia sekarang tapi aku sangat takut kalau ada something yang akan merubah segalanya... ye aku memang agak takut dengan perubahan... tapi kalau dulu aku tak nak alami langsung... tapi sekarang aku beranikan jugak walau dalam hati.. Ya Allah...tidaaakkk!!!
but I always remember that a wise man said there will always be rainbow after raining... plus Allah takkan beri ujian kepada hambanya kalau hambanya tak dapat atasinya...
Wassalam....
p/s: aku masih tertanya-tanya kenapa aku menangis time bibik nora akad nikah... time tu aku rasa sedih sangat macam seorang insan yang akan melepaskan anaknya pergi... mungkinkah...... hmmmmm...
Dah lama tak post kat sini... dalam otak dah banyak benda nak tulis sebenarnya tapi nak men-translate-kan kepada bahasa manusia tu agak susah sikit... perlukan masa dan kebijaksanaan 'menggoreng'...
So post ni jugak merupakan post yang pertama guna background baru... try tengok sekeliling .... plus header tu di buat khas dari photoshop... mungkin agak pelik dan tak sekreatif yang sebelum ni.. tapi yang ni lebih Qistina's style.. seni yang pelik memang saya.. hehehehe...thanks kat Wa (housemate kat UNIMAS dulu) yang telah menghabiskan masa lapangnya membuat blog aku ... below ada print screen blog dulu supaya aku x lupa hasil tangan Wa...
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Next nak cerita yang super junior buat album baru... hahaha... ya saya memang ELF tapi sekadar mengisi masa lapang ... x lar sepenuh masa.. sebab masa yang lain saya Hottest, Blackjack, V.I.P dan sebagainya...hahaha.. dan hamba Allah sepenuh masa... ok back to the story, oppa2 suju ni keluarkan album keenam yang bertajuk Sexy, Free and Single... ulalala... macam describe aku jer.. tapi tang sexy tu bukan aku lar.. ada 10 track dan aku suka semua..jadi aku recommend semua kat korang... selalunya ada satu atau dua lagu dari album diaorg yang aku rasa macam nak baling earphone je bila dengar tapi yang ni aku ulang nak dekat 10 kali... mungkin sebab banyak lagu yang lembut dan menenangkan hati...(aku sebanrnya jiwang 1% ni semua sebab aku lahir bulan feb.. hehehe..)
Ramai yang pelik terutamanya kaum lelaki yang tak paham kenapakah dan mengapakah aku dan orang2 yang sewaktu dengannya boleh minat dengan lagu2 korea ni pada hal lirik pun xpaham... hmm... sebenarnya aku lagi tak paham diorang... first kalau xpaham bahasa diaorg google kan ada... banyak yang dah di eng sub ..aku mengamalkan sikap paham lagu baru nyanyi..sebab takut ada bahasa seperti $!$!%@^ plak yang aku dok syok nyanyi... kedua memang banyak yang macam obses gila2 kat penyanyi2 n pelakon2 kat negara tu... FYI ada je kawan aku yang gila2 obses kat penyanyi dgn pelakon negara lain.. siap cakap pun nak macam diaorg... eg, hindustan.. dulu zaman rosalinda(cerita mxico yang ada hero handsome gila) kat sekolah aku asyik2 mia mor, porke... plus yang obses komik, bola, kereta, serangga(??)aku xcakap ape2 pun...pssstt.. maklumat dalam turut mengatakan walaupun jantina opposite aku x suka dengan artis2 negara tu tapi stail rambut dengan fesyen baju still ikut negara tu jugak.. ape kes???jadi... respect my interest so I can respect yours too... okay? set!!
hmm... lepas tu apa lagi yang baru??? nak cerita kawan baru macam banyak sangat.. satu kelas ada 16 ke 17 orang aku masih tak sure.. sorang laki.. yang 16/17 ni batch intake untuk yang under UiTM je.. memang semua otak maths jadi memang ngam lar.. kalau yang tak ngam tu pun aku buat2 ngam juga... hahaha... jadi aku agak aman bahagia sekarang.. first sebab ada subject maths... calculus satu sampai tiga, maths logic, linear algebra, economy dan sebagainya... ambik kau... nak sangat maths...dulu kat UNIMAS xde maths pun... I mean maths yang macam add maths tu... sedih gila aku.. petang2 balik kelas megenang nasib kat jambatan cinta...kedua sebab tak payah masuk lab... yay! satu2nya lab yang aku kena masuk lab computer... ape lar sangat..... dan yang terakhir sebab aku banyak sangat kawan yang satu course kat sini.. aku rasa macam zaman kat convent dengan matrik kembali... oh, indahnya dunia... (over mode dah mai dah)
tapi, dalam kegembiraan aku tu aku rasa sedih sangat dengan rindu sangat nak jalan dekat jambatan cinta malam2 (please not when it rained heavily.. dont dare to imagine..).. bawak kereta manual (yang aku tak pandai langsung sampai kena minta siti iha yang kawal gear aku kawal stereng) dengan yah, siti iha n siti has... sembang pasal hongki dengan fatin romdzi walaupun aku sebenarnya ELF.. jadi basically aku dengar je dia cakap... tapi aku suka sebab boleh tambah ilmu pengetahuan... hahaha...plus sedut cerita dengan dia gak plus jadi gila time lab chem... plus dia perkenalkan aku kat simon and martina (the couple who review kpop vid). They should thank fatin romdzi sebab dah tambah sorang yang subcribe channel dia.. hahaha... pastu pegi bilik ntah sapa sebab nak mintak runningman... serious lawak gila... pastu karok dengan ika yang sama gila dengan aku tapi gila2 dia dean list jugak... owh aku lupa nak cakap yang kwan aku sekarang pun fatin jugak... hahaha... aku rasa kalau aku duduk dalam komuniti fatin aku memang selamat, aman dan bahagia... err laki ada nama fatin x? aku nak kawin dengan dia... hahaha.... lepas tu aku rindu kt kak aishah... dia cahaya aku kat UNIMAS (hyperbola) sebab masa daftar kat BRC which aku memang murung gila masa tu sebab baru sampai UNIMAS plus tak kenal sapa2 tetiba nampak dia kakak yang satu class dengan aku masa matrik dulu... ohh indahnya dunia... pastu dia selalu belanja aku Milo.. yerobun bogosipeul (ejaan salah tapi bunyi macam betul)!!! uwaaaa.... T T
aku sangat sakit hati dan x puas hati dan makan hati bila ada orang cakap aku pindah sebab rindu rumah dan orang kutuk2 course lama aku kat UNIMAS... HELLO manusia... tau tak budak2 yang ambik course tu semua bijak2, lawa2, handsome2 dan baik2 dari korang...plus aku dari dulu selalu tak pernah duduk rumah dan bukan anak manja... dari 4 tahun aku selalu balik kg dengan m.cik aku bila hujung tahun, sekolah aku walaupun 10min dari tempat kerja abah tapi dia tak pernah ambik aku balik bila hujung minggu dan matrik aku kat changlun, kedah....sekian... aku tukar sebab aku tak bijak bio dan sangatlah tidak pandai chem(terbukti bila aku dpt C+ time finale) dan nak maths tu jer.. bukan sebab aku rasa course tu takde class... please have some respect... dont worry guys walaupun aku dah tukar course aku akan protect course korang tu... hahaha... rasa macam Superwomen pulak.. aku xpernah ada peluang nak jelaskan kat manusia2 terbabit.. jadi kat sini pun cukuplar kan..
conclusion.... walaupun aku sgt bahagia sekarang tapi aku sangat takut kalau ada something yang akan merubah segalanya... ye aku memang agak takut dengan perubahan... tapi kalau dulu aku tak nak alami langsung... tapi sekarang aku beranikan jugak walau dalam hati.. Ya Allah...tidaaakkk!!!
but I always remember that a wise man said there will always be rainbow after raining... plus Allah takkan beri ujian kepada hambanya kalau hambanya tak dapat atasinya...
Wassalam....
p/s: aku masih tertanya-tanya kenapa aku menangis time bibik nora akad nikah... time tu aku rasa sedih sangat macam seorang insan yang akan melepaskan anaknya pergi... mungkinkah...... hmmmmm...
with love,
qistina mohd sarngi
14 May, 2012
Mengadu..
Dear future Qistina,
This past Qistina has something that has been bothering her...
The pain can be detected in her heart and in her head..
Her mouth feels like cursing but then she realise that cursing will only add sins to her not to the "something that has been bothering her"..
So, this. is. anger... before this she takes things lightly and just forgive everyone even that "thing" has go over the limit.. her anger used to be in seconds but yesterday, she need to lie down and sleep to cool down.
This past Qistina has something that has been bothering her...
The pain can be detected in her heart and in her head..
Her mouth feels like cursing but then she realise that cursing will only add sins to her not to the "something that has been bothering her"..
So, this. is. anger... before this she takes things lightly and just forgive everyone even that "thing" has go over the limit.. her anger used to be in seconds but yesterday, she need to lie down and sleep to cool down.
She hates it a lot but she cant avoid that feeling..
Maybe she is still a junior in the adult life.. still cant control the unstable mood... still a lot to learn
Luckily that anger does not release to any innocent person around her.. if and only if it does.. the world will be end for her... hmm...
Lastly, I want to ask you future Qistina...
Allah Maha Mengasih melebihi Marahnya, jadi layakkah hambanya untuk marah selamanya?
Maybe she is still a junior in the adult life.. still cant control the unstable mood... still a lot to learn
Luckily that anger does not release to any innocent person around her.. if and only if it does.. the world will be end for her... hmm...
Lastly, I want to ask you future Qistina...
Allah Maha Mengasih melebihi Marahnya, jadi layakkah hambanya untuk marah selamanya?
with love,
QistinaMohd Sarngi
15 January, 2012
Its okay its alright.. come on girl fight,fightfight!!!!
starts with salam and a big smile from me.
Assalammualaikum,
p/s: Thanks to Najwa Azmi too coz making my blog shines and look girlish.. the header and the layout.. thank you!!!! tomorrow last paper.. oh yeah.. oh yeahh..oh yeah yeah yeah!!(masuk lagu mblaq plak)
Assalammualaikum,
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today is sunday morning, and I'm alone in my room since all my roomates and housemates are heading back to their hometown today and the other day before.. hmm.. if I am 6 years old kid I might cry and making loud noises and saying that life is unfair whole day(since there is no one here to stop you cause you are alone). so instead I'm writing to you..hehehe.. hmm.. saying I'm not jealous would be the fake me so here is the real me "I am soooo sooo sooo insanely-totally-damnably(is this correct?) jelous of them" and they make me wake up this morning hopping that I'm at home. haiz... I got one paper and a date with my girlfriends left before I'm going back which mean 3 more days. luckily Kak Aishah, (the only girl that is in Unimas that I'm close since matrics) willing to accompany me and go back together on this wednesday. She is the savior of my loneliness!! hehehe... the thing that I really2 thank her is because her paper finish about 4 days earlier than me but she choose to stay here with me instead. hmm.. so thoughtful of her.. gumbawo and arigato kak Aishah...
With love,
qistina Mohd sarngi
11 January, 2012
L.O.v.e
Salam,
Syukur alhamdulillah ak still dapat meng-control pemikiran yang waras sepanjang ak kat sini sebagai seorang musafir di bumi kenyalang..hahaha.. alone here but I'm okay.. dah masuk final exam first sem dah pun.. hmmm... tak ku sangka ak boleh bertahan selama itu (ayat mcm nak graduate dah).. nama jer Sarawak, merentas laut china selatan.. jauh tuuuuuuu... tapi ak selesa kat sini.. I'm totally in love dengan Sarawak ni.. tapi aku still tak fall in love dengan course yang ak ambik..which is zoology... not that i dont like this course tapi... senang cakap bila dah cakap x cinta tu mcm2 alasan aku boleh bagi.. tapi aku takkan give up begitu shj.. if betul takdir ak kat sini walaupun ak ad apply U lain untuk second sem intake tapi x dapat, saya Fatin qistina bt Mohd sarngi TAKKAN menangis dan TAKKAN take for granted for what is fated for me. Even I'm not loving you as much as i love my SUJu brothers and my new love yamashita tomohisa but I'll will never give up on you..
Best sebenarnya ambik zoology ni.. sebab ak belajar untuk berterima kasih kepada Allah S.W.T tentang ciptaannya yang amat indah.. sebelum ni ak x penah kesah pun serangga tu buat apa and mostly ak akan avoid eye contact dgn dia.. hehehe.. tapi lately mlam2 ak selalu buat eye contact dengan kupu2 fully white yang pulun nak masuk bilik ikut tingkap tu.. tanpa ak sedari ak puji betapa cantiknye dia kalah miss Universe .. if ak ada DSLr yang boleh tangkap gambar waktu malam tu boleh ak letak kat sini.. hehehe.. dan semalam ak bukak tingkap bilik ak around 6.30 pagi.. (kat sini dah habis subuh dah) wah.. fresh giler.. plus natural musical .. and aku wonder dapat ke the next generation rasa apa yang aku rasa pagi tu if xder orang yang nak try nak selamatkan environment such as zoologist. entahlar.. ^^,
I'm turning 20 this year!! hehehe.. and alot have been talking about marriage, couple and kids.. hahaha.. ak yang baru jer nak blajar ber-socialise dengan org ni, diaorg dah advance sampai nak ada anak dah... bagus sebenarnye sebb dah plan awal2 tapi ak takut nak plan semua tu.. sebab ak sendiri x in love dgn diri ak mcm mane ak nak love other ppl. tunggular nanti.. nanti bila ak dah tak akward around people, bila ak tak annoyed people that around me and be clumsy day by day.. seriously tipu kalau ak tak rasa sdikit jelous kat kawan2 yang dah kawin n couple.. plus seriously it feels good to be love mcm cerite2 korea tu.. ta..pi.... ermm.. nanti if ada the one ak bagi tahu first kat sini sebelum ak bagi tau nadiah okay...(this piece of paragraph mcm...tak rase ke mcm.. erm..)
Syukur alhamdulillah ak still dapat meng-control pemikiran yang waras sepanjang ak kat sini sebagai seorang musafir di bumi kenyalang..hahaha.. alone here but I'm okay.. dah masuk final exam first sem dah pun.. hmmm... tak ku sangka ak boleh bertahan selama itu (ayat mcm nak graduate dah).. nama jer Sarawak, merentas laut china selatan.. jauh tuuuuuuu... tapi ak selesa kat sini.. I'm totally in love dengan Sarawak ni.. tapi aku still tak fall in love dengan course yang ak ambik..which is zoology... not that i dont like this course tapi... senang cakap bila dah cakap x cinta tu mcm2 alasan aku boleh bagi.. tapi aku takkan give up begitu shj.. if betul takdir ak kat sini walaupun ak ad apply U lain untuk second sem intake tapi x dapat, saya Fatin qistina bt Mohd sarngi TAKKAN menangis dan TAKKAN take for granted for what is fated for me. Even I'm not loving you as much as i love my SUJu brothers and my new love yamashita tomohisa but I'll will never give up on you..
Best sebenarnya ambik zoology ni.. sebab ak belajar untuk berterima kasih kepada Allah S.W.T tentang ciptaannya yang amat indah.. sebelum ni ak x penah kesah pun serangga tu buat apa and mostly ak akan avoid eye contact dgn dia.. hehehe.. tapi lately mlam2 ak selalu buat eye contact dengan kupu2 fully white yang pulun nak masuk bilik ikut tingkap tu.. tanpa ak sedari ak puji betapa cantiknye dia kalah miss Universe .. if ak ada DSLr yang boleh tangkap gambar waktu malam tu boleh ak letak kat sini.. hehehe.. dan semalam ak bukak tingkap bilik ak around 6.30 pagi.. (kat sini dah habis subuh dah) wah.. fresh giler.. plus natural musical .. and aku wonder dapat ke the next generation rasa apa yang aku rasa pagi tu if xder orang yang nak try nak selamatkan environment such as zoologist. entahlar.. ^^,
I'm turning 20 this year!! hehehe.. and alot have been talking about marriage, couple and kids.. hahaha.. ak yang baru jer nak blajar ber-socialise dengan org ni, diaorg dah advance sampai nak ada anak dah... bagus sebenarnye sebb dah plan awal2 tapi ak takut nak plan semua tu.. sebab ak sendiri x in love dgn diri ak mcm mane ak nak love other ppl. tunggular nanti.. nanti bila ak dah tak akward around people, bila ak tak annoyed people that around me and be clumsy day by day.. seriously tipu kalau ak tak rasa sdikit jelous kat kawan2 yang dah kawin n couple.. plus seriously it feels good to be love mcm cerite2 korea tu.. ta..pi.... ermm.. nanti if ada the one ak bagi tahu first kat sini sebelum ak bagi tau nadiah okay...(this piece of paragraph mcm...tak rase ke mcm.. erm..)
collectable item ak yang baru dua jer.. hahaha.. boleh lar untuk seorang yang poket x seberapa mcm ak.. semua dapat dari epop.. if umi tau.. tak taular..
p/s: jumaat ada exam tapi ak dok berblog.. ishk3.. plus blog kali ni agk.. erm... btw, wish me luck! ada dua paper lagi..
05 January, 2012
2012 and I'm late..
5 days ago is new year and it takes me that very five days (actually more than five days) to think of a resolution. So after a lot of consideration I choose to.. BE BETTER THAN LAST YEAR.. hehehe…(overly written) that is actually my everyday motto before starting the day.. just change the last two words.
Better = less talk more action + act wisely + less clumsy + more alert + more discipline
Better = less talk more action + act wisely + less clumsy + more alert + more discipline
and lastly, i want to stop making people feel awkward around me or the other way round which is a tiring thing to deal with and sometimes i have to be not myself to avoid this.. trust me, I'm the most weird-opposite-witty-thinker in the society(not dirty)... and the brain just let the mouth said anything which mostly end up weird to the other brains.. in conclusion, I want to stop that and be normal.. think as normal-positives-pure as possible.. ^^
p/s: I wish to write about my new year party and new year disaster but tomorrow will be my first exam and as usual I only read some of the pages.. hehehe.. and also wish me and my friends luck for our final term exam..
with love,
qistina sarngi
21 December, 2011
the faded smile..
recently, like most of the girls she took a picture with her friend who is the-one-who-she-always-hangout-with after class..few days after, she looked back at the photo and found out that it was edited with a shocking sentence.."why you look sad?" *frozen*.. she asked herself, "does she knows?" and then she noticed that not only for this photo that she seem sad but the other new photos that she took the day after and yesterday... where did 'it' goes? as long she remember she did smile while taking the pictures but it seems that you cant lie the camera for this... hahaha...
but why is she sad?
Not homesick for sure..
maybe she's just lonely....
behind that laugh, there are a lot of difficult questions that she needs to solve by herself..
there are a lot of things she have to think wisely before she do it.. there a lot of situations which are bizarre to her that she has to go through alone.. why? because she thinks that people wont understands her, because people always give the very-weird-annoying-face when she vomit out her thoughts or her worries..
so she kept silent about that and make people laugh instead.. it is fun for awhile but until when people will still laugh for her lame expired jokes?? till when she will become such a hypocrite to herself??? till when she can only cry for the things that she thought she is wrong cause no one said "its okay girl you have done a great job"??? well, for us to answer that is really beyond our power... let us just pray for her to stay strong.. let us just pray that one day the smile will appear again...
Ya Allah, kau bantulah umat mu ini terus tabah menghadapi dugaan..
Ya Allah, kau tenangkanlah fikirannya, hatinya...
Sesungguhnya kaulah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang..
p/s: writing sebab dah lama tak tulis essay.. hehehe...
but why is she sad?
Not homesick for sure..
maybe she's just lonely....
behind that laugh, there are a lot of difficult questions that she needs to solve by herself..
there are a lot of things she have to think wisely before she do it.. there a lot of situations which are bizarre to her that she has to go through alone.. why? because she thinks that people wont understands her, because people always give the very-weird-annoying-face when she vomit out her thoughts or her worries..
so she kept silent about that and make people laugh instead.. it is fun for awhile but until when people will still laugh for her lame expired jokes?? till when she will become such a hypocrite to herself??? till when she can only cry for the things that she thought she is wrong cause no one said "its okay girl you have done a great job"??? well, for us to answer that is really beyond our power... let us just pray for her to stay strong.. let us just pray that one day the smile will appear again...
Ya Allah, kau bantulah umat mu ini terus tabah menghadapi dugaan..
Ya Allah, kau tenangkanlah fikirannya, hatinya...
Sesungguhnya kaulah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang..
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| taken from google |
p/s: writing sebab dah lama tak tulis essay.. hehehe...
11 December, 2011
Stresssssssssss! mine and them...
it has been a week i hear this so stressing word from my friends.. and its floating in my mind too... since me myself suffer the same disease so i cant exactly do anything to help them to overcome it other than by using the technique only-lending-your-ears-and-shut-your-mouth to them cause for me that's the first step of decreasing the level of stress.. mostly they are stress because of homesick, assignments, people's attitude and etc.. my stress came from, awkwardness among people, making decision, too concern about others feelings and etc....
so in this post I'm gonna share ways on controlling your and my stress according to my experience and others..
p/s: the ways listed is not based on expert.. so sorry for any mistakes of information
so in this post I'm gonna share ways on controlling your and my stress according to my experience and others..
p/s: the ways listed is not based on expert.. so sorry for any mistakes of information
1. Pray. Solat and doa and recite al-quran is the best medicine. this is surely good enough for those whose find it hard to share their worries to their peers. the real you where no one can complaint. you will find it refreshing and soothing.
2. Blurt it out. tell others your worries, your sadness or anything that adding your stress. It feels like your burden has lessen and life can move on a little bit smooth. but make sure you treat them later.. for this i want to thank nadiah and siti..terbaiklah korang ^^
2. Blurt it out. tell others your worries, your sadness or anything that adding your stress. It feels like your burden has lessen and life can move on a little bit smooth. but make sure you treat them later.. for this i want to thank nadiah and siti..terbaiklah korang ^^
3. Dancing till you sweat. just go with the flow..luckily in BRC(my college in UNIMAS) have senamtari as one of their weekend activity. so, grab this chance and move your body. Plus, one of my vid collection for dancing alone (syok sendiri production) is the vid when suju perform gee in one of their concert.. enjoy it alot and plus do it ALONE would be less embarrassing ^^
4. Singing.. yeah! I know alot of people do this in their room, bathroom and while driving...not only release your stress but also fill the loneliness... all you need is a fake microphone (bottles, comb or your mouse) and a gadget that can play song. sing it out loud like the whole world is yours. there are disadvantages for this though coz people might curse you for noise pollution. so, be wise.
5. Eating..two packets of maggie and one packet of Milo with 4 pieces of sugary biscuit is my fav easy and a must available food in my drawer.. I skip launch if i eat this for breakfast.. hehehe.. a wise person said that "perut kenyang, senang hati"..based on that this 5th method is created by me.. the disadvantage is you may end up increase in size which mean alot if you do it regularly and also upset your stomach which may harm you later on. so please.......... avoid this as much as you can.
Last piece of advice, control your stress and dont do something stupid just because you cant control your stress and always remember that people around you do love you although they dont show it..
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| my personal food supply drawer.. recently invaded by Mr cockroach.. |
with love,
qistina sarngi
p/s: i should continue my assaingment and read journal.. arghh.. stress!!!
18 January, 2011
family bonding
this bond suppose to be the unbreakable bond. this bond should shield any circumstances that will come by. this bond is there when they were small... but as they grow up and have many commitment they seems to forget. they have no respect to their parents. they break their parents heart into pieces without knowing that at their age they should be in peace. they should be happy to have great children and give them cute grandchildren. In real life... things are just opposite. the children seems to forgot the bond. more jealousy, hatred is created in their heart than love. . hmm.. sometimes they think that the bond that cause them trouble..
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