08 August, 2011

about me and sarawak <------->

Jauh tu...
boleh ke blaja kat sana??
knapa jauh sangat??
course apa tue??
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
typical comment from unknown sources. My response?? poker face and act blur.. the best get away when you feel annoyed and want to hide it.
I already did the dokumen perjalanan terhad, paid the fee and booked the flight.. but my heart and my head still asking the same question day by day since i received fate.. AM I DOING THE RIGHT CHOICE??
or ARE THERE EVEN ANY OTHER CHOICES??
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I knew the result at work and once I found out DANG!! it hit my face badly.. i hold my tears cause i do not want this matter effect my work. suddenly my mother came to send me launch. at that time i rushed into the car and started crying badly at home..my mum try to comfort me but  it was all in vain since it made me cry harder... just imagine my castle is crushed down by a bulldozer called upu... i skip my launch that day and went back to work after crying.. thank god they don't know i was crying at home.. but my close friend do notice my over-watery-eyes and give me support after knowing..
the next day the news spread to shah alam and klang ( my aunts place)... everyone said  'its okay' but I said its un-ok.. in the same time the decision had to be make in a week..

IN THAT PARTICULAR WEEK
- search any IPTS that I am able to enter
- call the IPTS for details
- DECISION 
- my uncle put me to accept he offer and decide after enter the IPTA

well, the biggest problem here is not the IPTA but the course they give me is really not satisfying my target to further my study. haiz.. I know my grades are not 4.0 but i got more than 3.5 which is a bit high for MY level of of study.. hmm.. i'm expecting more since my friend who does not event get 3.0 can get this course.. Reality does hit me badly this time.. thank god i have my mum who give me support everyday. if not, i might jump from the tallest building in kepala batas which is err.. hotel seri malaysia I guess..hahaha..( it is an analogy not reality) 

so now i am preparing for the admission day which is a few days after raya.. the word preparing is actually for my mother since she is the one who did it all for me.. hmm.. I wonder what will be without her..

lastly, thanks for those who support me and for those who think negatively, I'll try harder to change it.. just give me some time to digest what have been fed to me.. since time will cure everything I hope.

Que Sera Sera


When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

p/s:I hope you enjoy this lovely song that I accidentally feel want to put it here.. hahaha..