the faded smile..

recently, like most of the girls she took a picture with her friend who is the-one-who-she-always-hangout-with after class..few days after, she looked back at the photo and found out that it was edited with a shocking sentence.."why you look sad?" *frozen*.. she asked herself, "does she knows?" and then she noticed that not only for this photo that she seem sad but the other new photos that she took the day after and yesterday... where did 'it' goes? as long she remember she did smile while taking the pictures but it seems that you cant lie the camera for this... hahaha...
but why is she sad?
Not homesick for sure..
maybe she's just lonely....
behind that laugh, there are a lot of difficult questions that she needs to solve by herself..
there are a lot of things she have to think wisely before she do it.. there a lot of situations which are bizarre to her that she has to go through alone.. why? because she thinks that people wont understands her, because people always give the very-weird-annoying-face when she vomit out her thoughts or her worries..
so she kept silent about that and make people laugh instead.. it is fun for awhile but until when people will still laugh for her lame expired jokes?? till when she will become such a hypocrite to herself??? till when she can only cry for the things that she thought she is wrong cause no one said "its okay girl you have done a great job"???  well, for us to answer that is really beyond our power... let us just pray for her to stay strong.. let us just pray that one day the smile will appear again...
Ya Allah, kau bantulah umat mu ini terus tabah menghadapi dugaan..
Ya Allah, kau tenangkanlah fikirannya, hatinya...
Sesungguhnya kaulah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang..

taken from google

p/s: writing sebab dah lama tak tulis essay.. hehehe...